And you don't seem to understand

Suzumiya Haruhi rant:Haven't updated in a while. Lots of things have happened. Like the fact thatSuzumiya Haruhi No Yuutsu the anime has ended...*cries*too short...but then again its good for it to stop before it starts to suck(like most long anime series do)The last episode was good though...one of the best!(other than ep 00, 3, 11, and 12..my opinion)Mainly because it had tons of HaruKyon in it...plus the "Snow White" scene. Though as my friend nen_yim said "It felt sort of cheesy, especially with the BGM that was playing during it" Anyway this has given me a sudden burst of motivation to draw some SOS-dan fanart! Yeah, but I must do it quick and with my ears clogged up with Hare Hare Yukai, God Bless, Lost my Music, Bouken Desho Desho, and Asahina Mikuru no Densetsu or motivation dwiddles away. Not likely though, I've already got ideas in my head so I should be able to pull it through. Oh I found this reallly really interesting video:Learn the Haruhi Dance! It's not your ordinary tutorial of the dance and you should listen to Aya Hirano's Voice as it changes XD It shall screw up your outlook of the ED song![end]

And now back to our local news: Anyway near the end of the episode, I saw NHK ni youkoso! in the "next show coming up next week" section. So it wasn't completely bad since the anime I have long awaited to happen is finally being showed. This cracks me up though! After Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu, one of most unique animes ever, we have NHK ni youkoso! coming up, one of the most messed-up(mentally),exaggerated,funny-sad series on hikikomori(Social Withdrawal Syndrome;extreme Otaku)! What's more Kyon sort of looks like Satou...XD Might do some fan art of NHK ni Youkoso!(if I have enough time)since it is premiering in like the 9th and the Live Journal Community of it must be revived!

Oh and I gave up trying to study over the summer. I found out I'
ll probably forget everything in August and that I was going over things that made no sense and complicated things. Yes I hate math! I don't care if you can't do anything without a little math. I still detest it. And about SOTA...having second thoughts. Is this really a school I'm going to try to get in because I want to excel l in art or just to get back at my parents for trying to force me to become a nurse? I'll still apply though...

I'm going to The Philippines soon. In like the 26th. My family is being all cautious. They told me to shut up when I'm outside and to nod and shrug a lot. Yes I have to play the village idiot...for 2 reason:

1)Because if I open my mouth to talk, everyone will know I'm American(Jeez, I don't swear every 15 minutes!)and they supposedly think everyone in America smoke Benjamins. Unfortunately for them, there is no money in my or my dad's pocket. So I pity the fool who attempts to kidnap me.

2) I'm a girl.*cries* too cruel...note to self: before leaving for the Philippines, cut my breasts off and grow a penis =P

Ah I'll manage, I think most people there are spitting bull, but I'll keep my mouth shut if I'm force to. [over and out]

Ugg. I didn't sleep for 22 hours. Woo! Well the reasons for that is:

A)I'm busy downloading some Ichigo Mashimaro fansubs (which leads me to a further discussion. Do I read the manga because it's cute, or am I one sad piece of shit? Ack I don't care, its uberly cute...even though it might be labeled lolicon..ish. Don't see why though, just because the manga involves little kids does not mean its lolicon, best part is NO SEX,so ha! Not lolicon material! You can't even call it ecchi!...Oh shut up.)

B)I've played 9 hours of digimon world 3. That game is soo freaking addictive! Yes I seriously love how my Guilmon digivolves into a Wargrowlmon only to get its ass creamed by a little green colored woodmon ¬_¬

C)I'm suppose to wake up early today. So why should I sleep when there is a 95% chance I'll over sleep and piss the whole lot off?

D)I have been listening to radio. Because of this, my music taste has gone way down. Suddenly I crave Linkin Park. This not good. Maybe I should be like Pj. Say I hate music, but still listen to it. Yeah he's a damn hipocryte. He'll never admit that though.

E)I spent 2 hours re-reading The True Meaning of Cleavage by Mariah Fredericks. It was interesting, I guess. Sort of the norm though. You don't really get to know the meaning of cleavage. Well you sort of do, but that is a seriously sad way of putting it. The new book cover is a bit "eye-catching" thats for sure. I want to read Crunch Time It seems really interesting unfotunately I can only find hard cover and I am not made of money.( I so want to buy The Earth, My Butt, and Other Big Round Things! I was so freaking cool!)

F)My brain felt like bursting.In one hour of playing DW3 my left foot felt like all my nerves and veins died. so I felt like shit, and if I fell alseep I thought I was going to die in bed...just normal paranoia.

You know this is a perfect timing (since I've become a zombie, not a tele-zombie thankfully) to actually photocopy the test sheet papers and do some more COOP, HSPT, and TACHS exams. This way I can pay complete attention to the paper and not wonder off or bitch about how muni needs windows that can open when its NOT an emergancy. We need fresher air than recycled air.

[bitch talk] So I tried using the convincing method to let me dye my hair. It-of course- did not work. I forget I'm trying to convince the close minded one. Ok so I got told off the minute I said " Why can't I dye it?" with "IT MAKES YOU LOOK LIKE THAT CRAZY GREEN MAN!" in a very irritated voice. Hold on...green man? "Something called the gri-nch" o_0 wait what the hell!?! The grinch is what's stopping me from getting green hair!?! For God sakes he's a fucking cartoon character!*slaps forehead* You know why do I even bother anymore? Since I don't want to be ultra bitchy today, this is all my bitchiness for the day.

[normal rant] ok so today I am going to be zen zen motivated! Today I'm going to buy a whole lot of text books on entrance exams for both catholic school and HS in general. While I'm at it, I'll go ask some people in the art forums what is the most useful book I need for anatomy. Hell I might even learn how to sow properly. I refuse to get hair cut until its a must.I don't care about dying my hair anymore. I'll do it when I become independant.

So i'm going to be aiming for SOTA this year which I know will never happen because of the following reasons:
> They expect people everything to be on time as in no tardies which is impossible because I am the tardy shmoe who has been tardy 49 times in one school year. And it was that school year that I was suppose to put a "good" impression.


>I need to have a recommendation from an Art teacher and an Academic Teacher. One problem. I DO NOT HAVE AN ART TEACHER! I self-taught myself to draw! I barely know anatomy, perspective, and all that jazz! My 8th Grade teacher was supposidly an art teacher from Mercy B, but I don't know if I can get 2 recommendations by the same person! Ack!


>The only tools/mediums I use are pencil, paper, ink pen, and computer. I do not use charcoal, water colors, etc! And these people want variety.*sighs* I guess I could adapt, but I don't know any of the other mediums apart. One medium is water based, the other is something else based. What's that got to do with anything!?! note to self: Study up all those big art words that are over 4 letters

I guess I'll have to do both my homework in art and academics to get anywhere this summer! My report card wasn't that great(mostly B's one B was uncalled for! I had 2 A- in that area! I didn't even get a B+), it doesn't mean I'm stupid! Just that motivation is the key and less internet time! Thankfully SOTA is pretty nearby. Well not really but nearby. Now I've just got to beg. Pretty damn hard. It's not my fault I'm late...ok it is, but I got a louder alarm clock now(one to wake up the whole freaking neighborhood. And I'm going to sleep more! Promise! Lesser time online. I am going to be somebody! I am going to get a life early! Aaw crap my parents are so going to say "I told you so."

Now some of you( if anyone reads this) will think what the Deuce kid! There are other schools out there! Don't just focus on one! Well sure that's true,but Lowell is out of the question, Mercy is a possibility if we were rich. 10k is NOT easy to come up in 1 semester especially my parents, they can barely conjur up enough money for tuition and food! So SOTA is one of my only choices left. Hopefully its free. I think it is i need more research. If worse comes to worse, I'll just go to Mercy and ome up with a TRUE sob story and see if it'll work.

YES! I have made the cover...! here it is! [http://img20.imageshack.us/img20/9605/060412220028copy1hy.jpg] It took piss long, I KNOW! Why? Because I was dissatisfied with original one so I made a new one and it took a lot of planning and motivation(which I am always short). And it took a long time to clean it up and color it properly! I am somewhat satisfied with this outcome, a little shitty looking but hey, I'm just a kid...oh..and I maybe start a web comic on comicgen but yeah have to see if it developes well or is it a flukey.

bleh,so we were forced to go to a stupid parents meeting...it was at 7:30 pm I'm going why the hell couldn't they make it at 6:00!So troublesome, I was sent to the 5th grade until the meeting was over, it was pretty boring, they try to cram 40 kids into 1 class and they still expect everyone to be good little boys and girls...*sighs* so when the meeting was finally over my parents and I went home, on the way home mom had an asthma attack and she didn't bring her spray...to make things worse we have to walk home.It was like 2 miles just to get to the bottom street and then we have to climb a very steep hill on top of that my mom couldn't walk a block without pausing for about 2 minutes.It was fucking 9:00 pm...Sometimes i hate cars...

[XreservedX]I've decided to make a web comic..it has nothing to do with lain but lain rocks...anywho once i get it done, I'll put it up here...because I am not exactly sure if I'll just lose interest and quit this project so no site for me yet~